Riley and Davis at Silver Dollar City

Riley and Davis at Silver Dollar City

Monday, December 16, 2013


I live my life in numbers. I am 31, my husband is 39, our kids are 7 and 5. It has been 13 years since I was in high school. I have known my husband for 10 years. This is our 9th Christmas as a couple. We have been married 8 years. My half birthday is October 28. I count the hours from arriving at work until I am home again. I count down days and minutes. This week we have 4 days until we go to Silver Dollar City, 9 days until Christmas, 13 days until vacation. Each night I give the kids warning countdowns to bedtime. 9 years ago we got Millie, 3 years ago we got Lizzy. Bo is 20 months old. My sister died 6 months ago.

I think about numbers and the passing of time constantly. And I can’t wrap my head around the fact that it has been 6 months. There are days when Alicia doesn’t cross my mind. There are others when she refuses to leave my thoughts. I worry that I will forget some little detail about her. I hope that some details of her illness I do forget.

I had a lot more to say it seemed like before I started writing this. But now that the words are on the page, I have no more to say. Just that 6 months has never passed so quickly before.

Friday, September 20, 2013

A lot of good

I woke up this morning to a blog comment on the other blog ( The comment said that my mention of Julia had lead to several hits on their blog. I can't imagine better news. It confirmed that I can use that platform to help people. And it is just amazing how much people can care for someone they don't know; there truly is a great deal of compassion in our world.

Last night at the Jefferson City v Blair Oaks softball game, it was their annual Pink Out for Breast Cancer Awareness. In addition to wearing pink and giving facts about Breast Cancer throughout the game, they also chose to raise money for the American Cancer Society and JCMG Oncology on behalf of Alicia.

Coach Dey had also asked Riley to be in the dugout with them for the game. And for a softball obsessed little girl, nothing could have meant more. To her their is no difference between Riley Hayes (one of the seniors on the team) and Jennie Finch, or Keilani Ricketts (or for us old ones Dot Richardson and Lisa Fernandez). She has this high school softball team placed high on a pedastal. She said it was one of the best nights of her life.